Fell for the wrong person?

Though it’s hard to even type this write now, I want to get a few things off my chest. I’ve been crushing on this boy, Rock, for over a year now and until recently he has completely shattered and broken my heart. I had this little thought at the back of my mind that he did like me back, by the small things he did. Eye contact, body language, mirroring. But truly, I was creating these all in my head and making myself fall for him more. How could I have been so stupid to lead myself on- when deep down I knew I would get hurt in the end. It pained me last night to see his hands all over another girl, bitch-face let’s call her, he was whispering in her ear, spinning her around, hands on her waist. Everything I have wanted from him, everything I have dreamed of having with him. He’s only known the girl six weeks and suddenly he’s like “Oh yeah, I really like her.” Does it work like that with boys? Do they always go for the pretty and skinny ones and not the one who was waiting, patiently for them to say one word to you? I’m utterly pissed off, and also very upset. I had spent an entire night, crying, thinking “Why? What did I do to deserve this?” My chest ached and my throat was tightening. I received no sleep. I just want some advice- how do I get over this guy?

eutonycerys. x